Ah Valentine's Day...

So I spent yet another Valentine's Day, alone, single, infront of the tv. Not that that is much of a surprize, as I was recovering from my birthday celebrations the night before. But it was still a little lonely not cuddling with someone I care about while watching mindless and useless television.

Whats strange about this year, is, ok yes I would have liked to have someone bring me chocolates and flowers, and yes I was a little lonely, but this year I wasn't sad. I didn't feel sorry for myself. I didn't ask the eternal "why me". Have I come resigned to the fact that I am single? Wow, am I actually content with being single?

Looking back to the list of guys I've been with the past few years, one would think that I'd have been content with being single a long time ago. Its a long, international list of good-for-nothing, but good-for-now guys that, actually, I'm proud of. Proud that I was able to survive them with my heart still in one piece, without being bitter or jaded.

Well at least not completely bitter or jaded...

Last night I was reminded of my bumpy romantic past with a simple text message:

Happy V Day beautiful...

I had erased his number from my phone due to my habit of sending drunken and embarrassing text messages at 3am on Sunday mornings. Yet I knew it was him because its the same text message that he's sent to me every year since 2007. The man who gave me the first, incredibly addictive, taste for the exotic and unattainable. The Disapearing Peruvian.

Usually this yearly message from him gets my heart all afflutter. Usually any word from him gives me the giggles and makes me weak in the knees. But this time, all it did was make me smile. Make me reminise the times when I thought, one day, one day. And now, four years later, I know that day will never come. But I remember, at the time, how sweet that feeling was.

So I think my next few blog posts, in tribute to Valentine's Day, to growing up, I will dedicate to all the men I've loved before. Because, although they bruised my heart quite royally, they did make me happy, those few moments that I shared with them. And thoughts of them still make me smile.